“I need to get out of the house!” is Lucille’s latest line. Girl friend is definitely suffering from cabin fever and though I wouldn’t say it’s here yet, nicer weather is coming. This weekend we bundled into our winter coats and took a nice walk to Peter’s parents house. Yesterday the kids and I went to park upon their insistence, the playground was all wet and slippery, but, we had it all to ourselves. Slowly, we’re starting our spring time activities, even though the weather hasn’t cooperated with our plans…I know the kids will be ecstatic when these trips are more frequent, and I will be too. This year they are so much more mobile and better able to understand instructions, so I’m expecting lots of fun times.
We’ve been stuck inside so much they’ve made a new game… rolling the bins of dog food and cat food into each other.
Lucille requested that we have a picnic at the park next time we go, which is such a great idea. Other things I’d like to do with the babies this spring are:
- Go out for ice cream
- Plant flowers together
- Pick flowers for loved ones
- Have a bonfire
- Play in the jumpy castle my mom gave them for Christmas outside (have I mentioned how this was set up in my house a few weeks? They had fun but oy, we had no room to move!)
- Visit a new park
And this doesn’t include the 8 day road trip we’re taking next month. I have no words to express how very excited I am for this trip. We have not taken any sort of vacation since Lennon was born. Taking annual family trips is a very high priority for me, but the last 2 years I realized I’d be doing it for my own benefit as the kids weren’t old enough to truly enjoy a vacation… so we skipped it. We did take a couple with Lucille pre-Lennon, she wasn’t old enough to enjoy them fully, but also not old enough to be bothered by the travel much. I think I’ll post pictures from those trips soon!
I’m an anxious person. I always have been. But since I’ve had Lennon my anxiety has become a whole new beast. I get so upset over such small things. I get so overwhelmed for no reason whatsoever. These should be the happiest days of my life, raising my babies. I’ve wanted to be a mom my whole life and now that I am one I’m so stressed. I’m happy, but I’m stressed. More than I should be. So I’m taking steps to improve myself.
I work from home which means when Peter is home on evenings and weekends I am often doing work because (this will surprise you) it’s hard to get my work done when I’m taking care of two babies. Peter also works a half day every other weekend. So for me, weekends are sometimes more filled with work than Monday-Friday.
I’m grateful to be able to work from home and help support my family financially without having to go to an office. But I need to enjoy my family as well. My entire family. When Peter is home, all 4 of us should be making memories together. So Memorial Day weekend I decided not to even look at my work for 2 days. It was one of the best decisions I’ve ever made.
Seriously, I don’t think we’ve spent so much time relaxing, enjoying each other’s company and having fun since Lennon’s been born. And it definitely helped that the weather was gorgeous!!
Recognizing that my anxiety has become a problem I believe is an important step to overcoming it. Because now that I’m aware of overreactions and disproportionate stress as I’m feeling it, I can calm myself down quicker. But weekends like last weekend are going to help me too.
One weekend a month I am vowing to not touch work. This may mean I will have to do more work throughout the week. It may mean I’ll have to give up some of my work responsibilities. But I think I need to take time to enjoy all the blessings I’ve been given. Focus on my loved ones and nothing else 2 days of every month without interruption. Because they are what’s most important.