I’m an anxious person. I always have been. But since I’ve had Lennon my anxiety has become a whole new beast. I get so upset over such small things. I get so overwhelmed for no reason whatsoever. These should be the happiest days of my life, raising my babies. I’ve wanted to be a mom my whole life and now that I am one I’m so stressed. I’m happy, but I’m stressed. More than I should be. So I’m taking steps to improve myself.
I work from home which means when Peter is home on evenings and weekends I am often doing work because (this will surprise you) it’s hard to get my work done when I’m taking care of two babies. Peter also works a half day every other weekend. So for me, weekends are sometimes more filled with work than Monday-Friday.
I’m grateful to be able to work from home and help support my family financially without having to go to an office. But I need to enjoy my family as well. My entire family. When Peter is home, all 4 of us should be making memories together. So Memorial Day weekend I decided not to even look at my work for 2 days. It was one of the best decisions I’ve ever made.
Seriously, I don’t think we’ve spent so much time relaxing, enjoying each other’s company and having fun since Lennon’s been born. And it definitely helped that the weather was gorgeous!!
Recognizing that my anxiety has become a problem I believe is an important step to overcoming it. Because now that I’m aware of overreactions and disproportionate stress as I’m feeling it, I can calm myself down quicker. But weekends like last weekend are going to help me too.
One weekend a month I am vowing to not touch work. This may mean I will have to do more work throughout the week. It may mean I’ll have to give up some of my work responsibilities. But I think I need to take time to enjoy all the blessings I’ve been given. Focus on my loved ones and nothing else 2 days of every month without interruption. Because they are what’s most important.